
The Pretentious Ramblings of a Film Student — Week 2 (The 3 stages of my life Defined by Film, TV and Vlogs)
This might sound a little weird but just here me out…
Before I go on I’m very much aware that these are things that most people probably haven't seen, but hopefully you get a genral sence of what I mean :)
So after a fun night of drinking down the pub I stumbled home and whilst l was bobbing along to The Stone Roses it hit me, I can catergories 3 stages of my life into 4 films. For instance, the past couple of years of my life up until about a month ago have been represtented by Trainspotting and This Is England….
Now here me out, this might come across as very half meassured and rambly but I wanted to atleast channel my drunken thoughts into something vaguely cohesive (if thats even possible?) As of current I’d say im still in the transition phase of this part of my life and the next. Aside from the heroin abuse and racism that is very very very presesent between the two films the core characteristics of Renton and Shaun are very similar to myself right now, at least to me it seems pretty clear. Both the film and TV show feature young men on the verge of leaving the nest but who are never quite sure what they want with their life, I’ll admit, Renton is a terrible human being and only escapes the bleakness of his world by running off with the money from the skag deal he and his I quote “so called mates” make. But hey atlest he gave Spud 4 grands worth of money to inadvertently continue feeding his heroin addiction!… oh wait… But anyway my point still stands. I like to think of Shaun as the more positive apsects of myself, he grows from being abit of an outcast to a much more confident and self assured person striving to do something different, once he is offered a place on his college course he becomes a much better person, building a closer relationship to his mum and is even able to move on from his mistreatment of Smell ( his ex girlfrend) and find love again, whilst Renton is a selfish narcissist that is cotemt at staying in his own squaler and misery because it means he doesnt have to try, Renton represents my laziness and most of my anxieties as he is someone who runs away from his problems rather than facing them.
The characters in both film and subsequent TV show have the two protagonists surrounded by larger than life characters who are forever linked to their develompent as characters and people, they will shape them for life. Whether that be a Begbie type of guy or Woody sort of fella. But then again a lot of the people you meet through school or college inevitably part ways, as you move forward some of the people who you have been closest to the most, fade away into memory. Walking home from the pub the other night I felt very much like Renton at the end of Trainspotting. Leaving his old life behind as he heads off for better pastures. Sort of like and end of an era.
Much like the interoir of the TARDIS, social circles change, from a small trio, to a huge Family and then to a much happier and smaller one.
So right now im living in SPACED. Im surrounded by some of the most insanely bonkers people I’v ever met, and I love it. were only a small group but it feels so big with the wonderfully batshit crazy people I currently get to hangout with. Every night out or pub visit with these guys feels exactly like an adventure that Tim Mike Daisy and Brian might be having. Whether its having a pint at our local or a cuppa at my sister’s house it always feels like my world is subject to the same bizzareness and sillyness of Tim and Daisys flat. I feel like at any minute three CIA looking blokes are gunna start an imaginary gun fight with us or that the dogs in danger of being stolen by and evil vivisectionist, and I can’t think of anything better to represent my life right now. This has never felt so aparent until know. Despite several extremely shitty events and the end of several friendships, these last couple of months have been some of my happiest ever. Despite the fact that reality is nearing closer with the prospects of Univercity. I’m sure we will be taking many breaks from it from time to time in the pub.
This is probably the hardist one to explain… but I’m gunna give it a shot anyway. Hazel Hayes is a YouTuber and Film Maker who created an online Documentary called Time of the Month. in which she documented her day to day life in monthly instalments over a 2 years period.
Time of the Month is the Next phase of my life (at least I hope it can be.) The way her life is relfected feels so intune with my own. Her family, friends and genral lifestlye feel familiar despite being at a completley different stage of my life. Its kinda funny because despite the fact its a documentary and it IS real its actually kind of scary how close her life is to a sitcom and how NOT real it feels… does that make sense?… but then again we both share a weird and wonderfully silly relationships with completely mad and nonsencical people :) everything she does feel like something me and my friends will get to do. She is living the life I want.
I find it difficult because I don’t know if you know this but I really like films… one of the reason I'm enjoying doing these blogs so much is because I get to spew all my thoughts and all my pointelss ideas (like this one you reading now), even if no one actually reads them.
So one of my best pals is a HUGE music fanatic and is able to have deep and meaningful conversations with the artists he likes with our other mates, but unfortunately no one is as much of a film buff as me. Which is why I envy Hazel so much. Being able to talk about films with like minded people and even getting to make films for a living, which is something I aspire to be able to do.
Oh Boi that was a long one, sorry about that but hey I thought I might aswell try and get this into something cohesive and structured.It makes sence to me but I hope you lot can can get the jist of atleast some of my drunken thoughts.
So I’m gunna do something which might work but might not. I’m gunna ask you all if theres a TV show or film that represents some aspects of you or your life?
feel free to leave us a response down bellow :)
Peace out & Papa Bless
