Yes. All of this. It’s a terrible terrible cycle. I constantly feel like I don’t know what to do and am unsure whether or not I’m doing the right things because the “help” isn’t helpful — despite many tries with many therapists. I’m here in spite of a hellish experience in hospital a few summers ago, which has left me feeling similarly that there is no help.
At least there are people who understand and know what it’s like. Not being alone in the cycle, despite how terrible it is, helps me feel less… isolated, I suppose.