3 Things I Did to Win My Battle with Anxiety

An introspective look at my 10 year war

Andrew Taynor
Mar 11 · 6 min read
Photo by Junior Moran on Unsplash

In The Beginning

I can’t even remember the day that it started. All I really remember was being overcome by intense fear and worry. I can’t even tell you what it was I was afraid of or worrying about.

It seemed as though my mind wouldn’t allow me to process situations and circumstances the same as the people around me. I would freak out what seemed like something so insignificant to someone else.

The place that was supposed to feel like home for me really felt more like a prison. I was trapped. I wanted out, but I lost hope that I would ever escape this place.

This lasted for nearly a decade.

Feeling Alone

If you’ve ever battled anxiety issues or panic attacks, you know exactly what I’m talking about. If you’ve never struggled with anxiety, being overly worried, or the sudden burst of uncontrollable emotions in a short period of time, you have no clue what I’m talking about.

And that’s exactly why it’s so hard for two people with these two different perspectives to come together and live a normal life. That’s exactly why overcoming anxiety becomes a pipe dream and the victim usually struggles alone for years.

That’s where I was. I finally just gave up trying to talk to anyone about it, because I lost all hope in beating the disease. I battled things internally and suppressed them whenever I was around other people.

It wasn’t until recently when I finally beat my battle with anxiety. I’m not saying that I’m never afraid or worry or panic. I’m saying that it no longer has control over me. For the first time in nearly 10 years, I feel like the chains are broken and I’m free to walk in victory!

There’s really three main things that helped me win my battle over anxiety. Over the past several months, it’s almost like I’ve been collecting these three tools like infinity stones, and now I’ve finally got them all on my metal glove like Thanos.

The first step I found in overcoming my battle with anxiety is opening up. I can’t pinpoint my first experience with this, but I know I started using my writing as a way of escape. Whenever I would feel overly anxious or depressed, I would open up my laptop and just start pounding away at the keys.

It felt so freeing to be saying what I’d been thinking. It felt like I was able to just dump all the junk out of my mind and translate it onto the page. I began a practice of writing a few times a week. Through this process, writing became my therapy. I felt like I could best describe what was going through my head when I put it down on paper.

For me, I started my own blog and began sharing my thoughts with “the world.” When I say “the world,” what I really mean in my sphere of influence — my family and friends on social media. This was really the first exposure people got into the demons I was battling in my mind.

What I’m not suggesting here is that you share all your innermost thoughts and feelings with the entire world. For one, most people really don’t care about all of your problems. Also, there should be some thoughts that are just kept between you and maybe one or two other trusted people at most.

When I would write in my blog, it was usually things I was struggling with and how I overcame it. Or I would explain the steps I was going to take to prevent outcomes from occurring again in my life.

You may not even be a writer, and that’s perfectly fine. You don’t even have to “publish” the thoughts you’re writing or typing out. Maybe you even write in a diary or do some journaling. For me, I used writing as a way to help cope with the feelings I was feeling.

The second thing I did that enabled me to win my battle over anxiety was realizing my input created my output. What I mean is that I started being very conscious and even protective of what I was putting into my body. I learned that you can give life to stuff in your life by simply feeding it.

I’m a father of four beautiful kids. You learn pretty quick being a father that it’s very important to feed your children. If you didn’t realize that, they will remind you every 15 minutes how “starving” they are. Feeding your kids allows them to grow — not only physically, but also mentally.

You can also feed your emotions. I find that the state of my mental health is directly effected by the amount of time I spend on social media. The more I feed my eyes with drama and other people’s highlight reels, the more it feeds my emotions. I found I’m healthier mentally when I feed my mind less Facebook and more paperback book.

My wife and I also started making changes to our diet. We started eating more organic, whole health food instead of feeding our bodies with sugars and processed foods. We stopped eating out 5–6 times a week and started making more meals at home.

The reason I bring up food choices is because eating healthier helps our bodies become healthier. Our bodies were made to heal themselves. I found that when I started eating healthier and taking care of my physical health, my mental health started to improve. It’s like they were competing with each other to see who could get stronger faster.

“If you always think like you’ve always thought, you’ll always get what you’ve always got.” -Anonymous

Another practice I started doing was turning off the TV and Netflix and stopped listening to so many murder mystery podcasts. Instead, I picked up a book or listened to some motivational or leadership podcasts. Again, I found that when I put junk in, I usually got junk to come out.

Feed the negative and the negative will grow. Feed the worry and the worry will grow. Feed the fear and the fear will grow.

Feed the positive and the positive will grow. Feed your faith and your faith will grow. Feed your hope and your hope will grow.

The straw that finally broke the camels back in my battle with anxiety really came out of nowhere.

My wife and I started a 28 day detox after some friends of ours had some great success and weight loss. We got on a product line through a company called PURE. After getting our detox pack, I noticed that there was a product called Organic Sulfur. All I had known about sulfur was that it smelled like rotten eggs and usually was in well water.

Other than healing my joint pain and plantar fasciitis, this product did absolute wonders for my mental health! I honestly felt like a 10 year old fog had been lifted from my mind. My ability to see and thing clearly was like never before. It was nothing short of a miracle.

Another product in this detox pack was called GoYin. Again, I had no idea what GoYin was. GoYin is a balancing blend of superfruits, herbs and other fruits. It helps reduce stress on the body and mind while helping your overall well-being.

Using these two products alone I would recommend to anyone struggling with anxiety or depression. Obviously I can’t guarantee your results, but it worked for me!

I had no idea what either of these products were, or any of the other products in the detox pack. I was just doing the detox with my wife as a support to her. Now I’m sold out to these two products and want to take both everyday for the rest of my life!

Perfect Storm

While I don’t think any one of the the three solutions above can cure your anxiety alone, I do suggest a mix of all three.

I started writing out my thoughts a few months ago. Through that process, I started being cautious of what I was putting into my mind and body. Then I started the detox using the Organic Sulfur and GoYin.

Like I mentioned above, I can’t guarantee you results if you try everything I’ve mentioned above. I can tell you that for me, these three practices were the perfect storm and combination of disciplines that helped me win my decade long war with anxiety.

Andrew Taynor

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Hope is your greatest ally. I want to help you realize that as I struggle to hold onto it myself. Check out more from me at nephilimdome.com

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