SuzanneTWO FEETThey come out of the womb perfect and pink, all ten toes where they ought to be. As a toddler they spend some time in braces to combat…Sep 11, 2020Sep 11, 2020
SuzanneTHE USELESSNESS OF MEMORY3:42 AM, semi-awake, I’m walking up a cobblestone path and feel things falling away from either side of me. I feel it physically, a…Feb 28, 2020Feb 28, 2020
SuzanneTHE BEFOREThe shows you could go to, the crowds you could be in, the let-loose fun you could have.Jan 17, 20201Jan 17, 20201
SuzanneCANCER GASLIGHTINGGaslighting has been in the zeitgeist these past few years, thanks to the #MeToo movement. I’ve come to understand the term “gaslighting”…Oct 1, 2019Oct 1, 2019
SuzanneANTICIPATING MEETING A PALLIATIVE CARE DOCTOR FOR THE VERY FIRST TIMENo, I didn’t want my vitals taken. No, I wasn’t being rude to nurses. I’m here to have a conversation with you and I know you have access…Aug 8, 20191Aug 8, 20191
SuzanneTHE MAGIC OF COLORA few months ago I went to Washington D.C. to treat myself to art before another major surgery. I stayed near Dupont Circle and one…Dec 7, 20181Dec 7, 20181
SuzanneMY MOTHER MYSELFMy mother died less than a week ago and too much is going through my mind, but I’ll start by confessing that it’s close to midnight and I’m…Jul 31, 2018Jul 31, 2018
SuzanneMODERN LOVE (my essay the New York Times rejected)The older I got the more I loved my body. What it could do for me. Riding centuries on my bike, pushing harder at the gym, swimming laps…Jul 17, 20182Jul 17, 20182
SuzanneMOTHER-DAUGHTER MORTALITIESWhen I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer at 45 one of the worst things I had to accept was that my mother would have to watch me…Jun 17, 2018Jun 17, 2018