
Surviving Uncertainty
What is life but a series of moments strung together by multiple decisions and choices? You are where you are at this particular moment because of a choice that you made yesterday, the day before, or even ten years ago.
We are all in different places in our lives and there is no way to relive an exact moment, ever. Compare it to a baseball player hitting his second walk off grand slam. Sure, he won the game, again and did it in fantastic fashion but so much has changed in his life since his last walk off grand slam. He is a different person in a different place in his life. This moment, similar, is entirely different the second time around.
Each day we wake up and feel as though we are going through the motions acting out the same mundane routine. When in fact, today you woke up a little easier than you did the day before. Maybe your newborn son didn’t wake you up at 4am or you hit the snooze button once instead of twice. You didn’t feel like eating cereal for breakfast so you grabbed a banana. Each day we make hundred of decisions that prove that each day is not the same.
We know each day is different and no single day is identical. Happy today, sad tomorrow. We are all fluctuating between emotions and experiences trying to figure out this life we are leading. We were all told to go to school, get a degree, get a career, buy a house, get married, have some children, and live happily ever after. Simple directions yet filled with a large amount of uncertainty. How are we supposed to do this? How are we supposed to feel? Why should we do what others suggest or feel the way we feel. Why is no one here to hold our hand or point us in which direction to go?
Well, I am in that happily ever after stage and it is full of uncertianity. It is what I have always dreamt of but filled with plenty of questions. If you asked me ten years ago if I would be where I am today I would say something pretty close. I might not be able to tell you the exact town I live in or what type of car I would drive, but I would generally be where I planned to be because I made certain choices to get me there.
The question is, now what? Do I live happily ever after and sail off into the sunset? Hopefully. I am enjoying the moment and have never felt so complete before. I know that life will have its share of ups and downs. There will be plenty of new experiences that will be amazing such as, having a child. Having a child was an indescribable feeling that I am sure will experience again. Yes, it will feel similar but it will also be entirely different the second time around. I have to embrace that because that is what life is about. Adapting to the situation and embracing the uncertainty.
