From Phobia to Passion: My Journey into Pharmacology and the Crossroads of Choice

Nidhi Mahlawat
3 min readDec 12, 2023

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Navigating Career Decisions, Financial Realities, and the Allure of New York

Embarking on the journey of a medical career, I stood at a crossroads between pursuing a passion for pharmacology and the allure of a prestigious program in New York. This unexpected twist led me to explore the intricacies of my chosen field, confronting questions about financial aspects, career trajectories, and personal fulfillment.

My journey began with a phobia of pharmacology during my MBBS days. Little did I know that this subject, once a source of trepidation, would transform into a profound passion. After graduating with uncertainty about my future, I explored diverse cities and worked in various hospitals across India, broadening my perspectives.

Unexpected Turn: Choosing Pharmacology for MD:

As I contemplated pursuing a pharmacology and toxicology course in the USA, fate intervened with the NEET-PG exam. Reluctantly, I took the exam due to its location at a tourist destination — a chance to satisfy my love for travel. Surprisingly, I performed well, leading to an unexpected opportunity to pursue an MD in pharmacology in India.

The Dilemma: New York vs. India:

Dreaming of studying in New York, I found myself at a crucial decision point. The financial aspect loomed large — I had the option of paying 1 lakh fees for a three-year course in one of India’s premier government colleges or investing 1 crore for a two-year program in New York. The question of whether New York was truly worth the cost echoed in my mind.

Weighing Financial Realities:

Contemplating the financial implications, I questioned whether, at this stage in my life, it made sense to accumulate substantial debt. Was the allure of New York justified when the degree and future job prospects were comparable? The answer, upon reflection, led me to a realization: the pursuit of knowledge and experience need not be overshadowed by financial burdens.

Exploring the Soul of Pharmacology:

As I grappled with the decision, I delved deeper into the soul of pharmacology. Beyond geographical prestige, I discovered the profound impact this field has on patient care, research, and societal well-being. It became evident that the essence of pharmacology transcends borders and prestigious institutions.

Choosing Passion Over Prestige:

In the end, I made a conscious choice to prioritize my passion for pharmacology over the allure of a renowned institution. The decision to enroll in one of India’s top government colleges was not merely financial but a commitment to the intrinsic value and significance of my chosen field.

My journey from phobia to passion has been a testament to the unpredictable nature of life and the unforeseen opportunities that arise. As I embark on this new chapter in pharmacology, I am reminded that the pursuit of knowledge and fulfillment can be found in unexpected places. Whether in the bustling classrooms of New York or the serene corridors of an Indian government college, the soul of pharmacology remains unchanged, promising a fulfilling and meaningful journey ahead.

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Nidhi Mahlawat

MBBS, Pharmacology resident PGY1, Post/Articles about the process.