I Give You Your Faults

The pink-haired, sweatshirt-wearing person who was sitting near the back of the 1,000 person audience started her question with… “I understand the value of being authentic”, but then paused to ask, “what if my authentic had shameful stories…” As she mentioned AA, she wondered… “what good are my faults”.


This question reminds me of a term a friend, Wendy Clark shared about flaws, flawsome…used to describe something that is awesome because of its flaw. Or what Leonard Cohen said about brokenness: “There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in”.

We understand these ideas in theory but when it comes to ourselves, it’s hard — if not impossible — to embrace.

Which is why we ask others the question, “can I actually be me, even as I am ‘flawed’?”

The bio-scientist who hid her deeply spiritual yogi part of herself, lest her scientist peers think she’s “soft”. The engineering type, whose librarian mom taught him about how much access to information enables social equality, doesn’t talk to why he cares about building open-source-type storage solutions (because he fears his industry will not value this). The banker who has a ground-breaking idea to serve those who are gouged with 5–10% surcharges at check-cashing places refuses to share her idea with her peers because it would reveal she had grown up poor.

Some of these aren’t things I can name as “flaws” but was how people shared them with me.

We all want to be seen for ourselves, to add our bit to the world based on what only we see. To be fully authentic and valued for it. But we also fear sharing ALL of who we are, lest it isolates us from our peers.

So, we resist our flaws and faults, and resist sharing our own authentic stories…because we can’t see how the “flaws” serve us, (or our teams, or the world, for that matter).

I Give You Your Faults

This week, Wrinkle in Time’s movie adaptation will be released. As a book I read and re-read while growing up, I can’t wait to see what Ava Duvernay does to bring the book to life on the big screen. One passage I regularly return to is this:

“To you, Meg, I give you your faults.”
“My faults!” Meg cried.
“Your faults.”
“But I’m always trying to get rid of my faults!”
“Yes,” Mrs. Whatsit said. “However, I think you’ll find they’ll come in very handy on Camazotz.”

I almost referenced this specific passage during a Q&A with 1,000 person audience.

Because it’s Wrinkle’s dialogue that offers us the clue: “I think you’ll find they’ll come in handy”. Mrs. Whatsit was saying Meg’s flaws DID matter, and it was up to Meg to understand how to draw meaning from them. And she does.

She uses her flaws to be a warrior.

(Now you now know where you can find me March 9th, 2018)

And that’s why I think we resist our faults. Not because we hate them, but because we don’t understand how to draw meaning from them. Your onlyness comes (partly) from your wounds. It does not heal it, but makes sense of it. Your flaws can give your life it’s meaning.

Indicates What You Most Seek

I have already shared with you that I got kicked out of my house when I was 18 years old. Not because I was trying to avoid an arranged marriage perse, because I had already accepted that path as a fait accompli by age 5. But I yearned for an education and my family was unwilling to include that request to the groom, so I pulled a stunt to negotiate with my mom, using the line, “I am the product” and thinking there’s no way that could go wrong.

But, it boomeranged back to cause me to lose everything. Everything — home, family, community — all gone in one quick poof. Though it is likely that the groom would have ultimately granted my education request, I didn’t want to risk it. I just …couldn’t. I was, to name a specific fault of mine, impatient. I was also deeply aware that education is one major scaffolding that lets one set the direction of one’s own life.

The fault — impatience — also showed what I seek, that equal footing. And from that I have learned this many years later that I am willing and even able to challenge the status quo for that chance to have the same footing as others who are able to set the course of their own life. And it’s my life’s work today. My impatience for fighting for something is something I deeply wish I didn’t have, it causes friction with others I sit with, who are willing to “let it happen naturally”.

What Could It Be?

So that is what we can ask ourselves:

If this flaw is there for a reason, what could that be?

It could be that flawed experience — pain-numbing because work sucks — could serve others? Maybe the deep understanding that most organizations are set up to put the fire out of people, not to fire them up could be the genesis of someone who reinvents management. Maybe it would help one see that brands tell the safe story, not the real story and then when they are authentic it change the connection with customers. These faults could have meaning in her work, maybe even serving and saving us.


So, like Mrs. Whatsit did to Meg, I do to you. I give you your faults, and I ask you…what could be the meaning of them for you and your work? If your life has meaning, it’s because you have defined the meaning of your life. This is your work to do. But it’s you when you do it, you’ll become a force of change.

(p.s. this piece had a different story in it on the version posted on March 8th. It turns out I got a bunch of the facts wrong and greatly hurt the person whose story I was inspired by. I’ve edited it out, apologized privately and want to apologize publicly here.)

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