Life — an essential task

Let me say there’s no prelude, not foreword, from here on in you’re in the midst of the thick, you’re in the mix. Smack right in the middle of it. No, of course you’re not, all and everything calls for adapting to a way of thinking about it.

Couples pondering divorce sort of go through this, I guess. Being in the thick of it when realizing one cannot change his/her spouse without losing a key part of marriage; the happiness of one’s significant other. Then one has to find a silver lining, or get out of Dodge. And for most of us we do not want to simply leave everything and walk away. We need the silver linings. You’re in the midst of the thick, you’re in the mix, smack right in the middle of living your life.

Pretty much all things in life are related to what outcome we expect and I am set to adapt my life accordingly. Well, what could I change? There are still numerous tasks that need to be done and quite frankly they make up the bulk of the day, leaving little time for adding other activities to... well, there’s a lot going on. Is there a way to effectively perform all things in a more speedy manner without losing the end result?

We know things are consequently better if we actually try to make them ok, not just let them play out. As youngsters there’s an emotional gymnastic routine provoking each and every one of us, our feelings stretched out or crumped into small spaces, and we adapt. As grown folks, time for trying out our feelings has almost vanished. The thing is; crap will always happen. Embrace this as a fact of life!

I want change, but given empirical inquiries no mental serenity seem to emerge when doing whatever (or everything, or anything at all). That’s what I’ve been doing for years and years and I have a hunch I’ll make very little effort to actually change the way I do the particular whatever. However, for fun, for a few days I tried to appreciate the little things. Not flowers, or birds, or any such completely useless variety in my surroundings, but something I personally achieved. Really low level stuff, you know, I had one delicious hoagie for lunch, truly enjoyed eating it. Good job riding my bike to the grocery store, and so on. Like an inept idiot I’ve given myself credit for the smallest things, real infant stuff. It have made me feel better about myself, sort of accumulates on the inside and erupts into my brainstem with mangy splendor as I complete all the tedious crap I do every day.

Now, why could I not have made this realization years ago? I am pretty sure loads of people knew about happiness long before I made this effort to re-invent the wheel. You people suck!

Sorry, you are all my heroes! I very much doubt people whom pass judgment on others. Life’s about caution when gazing into the abyss, and all of that. Oh, thank you, Nietzsche.

Maybe everything is truly horrible! Next task; to insert emoji free of choice.