When discussing Star Wars with other people, they will often say they are fans, or even really big fans of Star Wars. And I always believe them. This galaxy is extensive and so is the fan base. I just think there are different types of fans within that fan base. I propose this as a beginning of a way to identify those types based on the amount of Star Wars knowledge they have accumulated, which is a measurable variable.

The categories I present are meant to be universal, based on my observations of fan culture and personal experience as a fan. The beliefs and behaviors, in italics, are included to illustrate the category. They reflect my own journey and development of beliefs as my Star Wars knowledge expanded¹. …


It’s still ADHD Awareness month I think. In order to spread awareness, I thought I’d get vulnerable and share a struggle I’m currently going through. I take medication that is a controlled substance. This means I have to pick up a paper prescription, deliver it personally, showing my ID to the pharmacy and once it is filled, pick it up personally, ID in hand. …


I have been avoiding my Timehop app for the last month or so. I know what I was doing a year ago. I have been reliving the weeks over and over again all year. …


Having a miscarriage sucks, and it doesn’t get any better the second time around. There is a different energy to this one, and I am noticing more about how the patterns of the world around me change (or don’t) this time than I did in the shock of the first one.

In my first pregnancy, my pinterest feed was full of maternity clothes, baby crafts and nurseries. Facebook was full of friends announcing pregnancies or giving birth or showing images of their little ones doing neat thing that I liked with my heart full of secret camaraderie and hope. …


On Wednesday we went in for the second ultrasound of our second pregnancy. I was nervous and skittish. I had a hard time connecting with this pregnancy, which I figured was my heart being a bit overprotective of itself since I had lost the first pregnancy in September. The first one ended some time after we saw a heartbeat, which is not that common. …


I found out I was pregnant in July. I was ecstatic, we had been trying and I was using all the DIY science I could to make it happen. It was fun, taking temperatures and looking for lines on pee sticks. And even more fun when it turned out it worked.

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My search history August 24, 2015. Real talk.

In September I learned it was over. We had just seen the heartbeat the week before, and we were starting to narrow down names and get our lives ready for major upheaval. And I was devastated. It was a missed miscarriage, meaning the fetus had died but my body hadn’t noticed. I chose to wait for my body to catch up to what the authoritative science had learned, to miscarry with no medical interventions. I spent 9 days knowing what was inside me wasn’t alive anymore, waiting for my body to know as well. It was important to me that my body figured it out if possible, so I could trust it again in the future. I was so grateful to the women that were open about their own experiences with miscarriage, online and in person. …

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