Diary of a new mum

I look at myself in the mirror and I am almost unrecognisable.

Starting from my hair...I didn't understand why I suddenly started having a receding hairline. I became so worried and Google, yet again, came to my rescue. Postpartum hair loss, it's a temporary condition and usually occurs from 3 months after childbirth.

I looked​ further down and I discovered my boobs were fuller than I'd imagined. The other day at work, I had an overflow and the four pairs of breast pads that I went to work with wouldn't cut it. I had stain patches on my hospital scrubs. I couldn't stand the smell of the breast milk despite the fact that I had changed into a new pair of scrubs. I just wanted to go home.

I have never had flat abs, neither have I had a stomach this big with the most beautifully drawn designs on them called "stretch marks." Nonetheless, I carry it with pride always. Love thyself.

I never knew I could be so selfless until I became a mum.

I never knew I was so powerful until I bore all those pains that brought forth my son. I never knew I had so much strength in me until I had to take care of him even when my stitches were still fresh and hurting. I never knew I could fight sleep until I had to watch over him, play with him and feed him every night no matter tired I am.

I have been changed physically, emotionally, psychologically, etc.

I know I will like to get back in shape as soon as possible, but obviously not at his risk. I will wait for him to have enough breast milk and increase our bonding time, our cooing time is absolutely amazing and one that I look forward to.

This process has changed me. I now have a renewed respect and love for every 'loving' mother the world over.

This process is called motherhood.

Happy mother’s day to all the loving mother’s in the universe.

NcO