I’ve heard the saying “Pain is weakness leaving your body” a million times. But, Is it always this way? I want to know if I am actually becoming stronger in some way. Carrying the weight might sound legendary or heroic and it might be. But, how can I carry the weight and be able to move forward at the same time? That’s the question I want an answer to. I keep rejecting the option of carrying light and that’s because its the only way I’ll be free in my opinion. Not completely free, but a breeze will do it. It almost feels like the battle between David and Goliath. Completely unfair.
My life and people don’t seem to get along well. Throughout my life I’ve met extraordinary people, including my family, that deserve a bit amount of pay back with some respect included. Not being able to maintain relationships its not the cause of this, just uncontrollable situations. I deserve to give these people something back, I want to give these people something back. The point I’m trying to make is this; Am I moving forward? If I am, why does it have to be this way?, without goodbyes or every month visits. Why so crude?
I’ve always had the theory that “Life” it’s not what we think it is. I’ve always thought the world was an experiment and everything went to shit. Somehow we’ve made up a system of becoming “happy” by looking really hard for things that pleases us. Like “The Happy Hour”.
Where is forward?
I guess I’ll have to wait to find out.