Why do we do this? Why do we create high thresholds for bad situations?

I get older and experience situations that tell me to go with my gut feeling. What is gut feeling besides some unexplainable innate emotion that tells you to sway this way or that? Well it’s most likely your past experiences telling you, “Hey- this has happened before, don’t let it happen again. It sucked.”

Who knows. For the whole day I’ve been wondering why I am so prone to make compromises to my happiness and energy. Making excuses for situations I know I do not want to be in. Telling myself, “maybe it’ll get better. Just wait and see…” when I know better. When that gut tells me I don’t actually want to do this. It’s hard to listen to that. It’s hard to act out on that. It is hard to do what is best for me when I know I am the only one who knows what is best, for me. That’s crazy right? As children we’re taught that somebody else knows best. After all, we are children. But as we get older this script flips and we are now taught only we can make decisions that is best for ourselves. And we’re AFRAID to make them! We’re afraid of what people think. We’re afraid other people’s logic is more valuable than ours. Remember, your trash is somebody else’s treasure. Your trash, their treasure, not yours.

I have no idea who said this. Some life entrepreneur(s) or whatever. But I feel like 90% of my adult life is un-learning all the crap they taught me in school. I look back and yes there are a lot of gold nuggets of invaluable lessons that I am grateful and blessed to have had. But you know what? There’s a lot of shit in there too. Useless stuff that if anything, stunted my growth process, instead or growing it. I’m sure we’re all in this battle together whether some recognize it or not.

Anyway, back to my pain point. Why the heck are we creating such a high tolerance for bad, unhealthy (for you) situations you know you should not be in? Once again I am not saying this is the same as going through a difficult task and persevering on through. Do not ever persevere through something that does not actually give you a positive end result. That is ridiculous and insane. Don’t be a masochist. Not with your positive energy and emotions.

I have no idea what life has in store for me. But I’m learning to recognize bad situations. The kind that send me back in the pattern of waking up and finding my sunshine stolen from me. I’m not about that life. The best way I know to get myself out of this ever sinking hole of bad ju-ju vibes? Take a deep breath, have confidence and trust in myself, and find a better environment. Where, what, and who you see (your environment) has a HUGE impact on your quality of thinking. When that environment is tainted- leave quick. It will poison everything in you. It is poison well and you don’t want to be anywhere near that.