At the end of every day, I can’t help but wonder, “Will this be worth it?”
Why is that? Because I think I have so much to lose out on right now. And I’ve felt what “loss” meant. Oh yes, I have. And it feels as though I’m just weakly inviting it all back. Willingly, this time around.
I wish to be honest. I do not fit here anymore. I wish to move on. I am, and will always be, grateful. But really, I can’t continue playing this game. Feels like I’m absorbing in the Korean culture all over again — that’s how this feels like.