Random II

3:10am — Getting some air outside because of the heat inside, with mosquitoes swarming all around me like they've been starved of blood for so long. I guess you cannot win it all, ey? Our light plan, I don't get it anymore. You get it for a week straight and other times, you get shunted out totally. How about we have control over the units we buy? Like switch it on and off whenever we would love to? I thought that was the reason for introducing this new system?

Had one of these lazy moments where instead of laughing, I made weird squeaky sounds. No, not tired, just lazy. The whole idea of looking for a job isn't for the faint-hearted unno, you send in numerous job applications and not even get called up for one. At a point you get laid back and tell life, "okay then, let's play the childish game", I'm at this point now.

Schadenfreude - I love this word ever since I came across it weeks ago, I only wish it could mean something more beautiful.

Compassion doesn’t end with the ability to recognize how others feel. That’s called observation. Compassion says that I can look at a friend and relate to the loss he feels over his mother’s passing even though my mother is still very much alive. I’ve lost other family members and know what that pain feels like, so I’m left to fill in the gap and imagine that what he is experiencing must be a far deeper pain, and so I am then moved to act on their behalf in some way. That’s not simply observing his feelings, but stepping out of the comfort zone of knowing my mother is still alive to attempt to see the world through his eyes as best as I can and taking action. Will I fully understand what he is going through? No, because his relationship with his mother was different from mine, but that fact shouldn’t stop me from trying understand his situation.

First Friday of this month, as we were about to leave redemption camp after Holy Ghost Congress, we found out that our exit was blocked by another car. We asked around and eventually got the number of the car owner, on calling him, He told us that he forgot he came with a car and is on his way home at Lekki with his wife in her car. Luckily, it got towed and we left by 5am.

There's something peaceful to me about Oshodi's chaos. I wish they had a park where one can just sit down and observe. Weird enough I seem to think and process better in the midst of chaos, although right now it is just a bunch of random nothings.

These guys at Balogun market will mention a price that your lips will be too heavy to open up to bargain. I am standing here wondering if I really need these shoes?

I dread having to convince people, that’s why I hardly engage in arguments. People are stressful, and I do not mean this in any evil way whatsoever. I think I have written something on engaging people, but do you know how stressful that is? Especially those who are not open to other views except theirs.

I called my mother earlier and the first thing she said was, “you’re in one of those moods, right?” She was right. I only seem to call her when I’m depressed, and that seems to happen a lot these days. It’s as if her voice is the calm I always need in my troubled life, for which I’m grateful. Can’t wait to surprise her with goodnews before this year runs out. Although she’s not complaining, I need to learn to deal with my own shit.

Went for an interview and got asked this, “how do you get people to come back to your site after the content they need is not readily available?” My response was that it would not be such a bad idea to link them up to sites with the content, which was quickly rebuffed with talks of giving out your customers to competition and what not. My answer might not be right, but I measured the start-up’s prospect with that reply.

I see nothing wrong with my answer in that, I’ve seen Google and recently techcabal (with their daily digest) link its users to 3rd party websites. One might argue that they are into news, but most times, I do not even notice these websites I get linked to until maybe after the 3rd/4th time (using UI and UX). I believe the same to be for others as well. It’s okay if you don’t have everything I need, but wouldn’t it be rather dependable to know that I can get what I want from your website (be it directly or indirectly?). Telling me to come back later (or emailing me when you’ve got it) …who told you I would wait that long? I will easily go back to Google (or torrent) and search for what I want. Attention span over the Internet is so low and is rather overestimated by these guys.

I am angry I was too nervous to actually lay this out then. Not happening again.

I listen to so many stories of men (most being those I rapport very well with) being scum. It scares me so much because the last person I thought would behave, did not. What exactly happens to us men when we get married? It seems we lose everything. Is it the pressure? Wait.. What pressure?

I dislike African Magic.