Letting Go.
How hard should it really be?
I don’t think it should be a struggle at all.
It's like he’s leaving me behind although he did give me time
What a year and a half?
But I feel like it ended when he had his kid.
I know I’m not just in love with the idea of him
It’s because I know I love the way I feel with him
Ever since the first day, I laid eyes on him
He didn’t just shine like the rest of them
But even still I decided to take a deep breath within because — to the left, I didn’t just have a friend
Was this love or the desire of a deadly sin?
You know the one where the Christians rush to condemn men.
Because pleasures of the flesh shouldn’t be experienced.
I’m telling you that’s not what I felt when I finally locked eyes with you in person
It’s like our spirits reunited and lit a fire no longer contained.
Even still, were you aware of the feeling?
Did it leave a lasting memory in the akashic domain?
I still think about the day and the days in between
The way waiting for texts that never came through would make me feel a fool
When I finally saw your name pop up in my DMs
Yes, the story is true
You made me feel a way
A way that now when any man tries to lay a hand upon my spirit or lay me in his bed…
They gotta have one up on you.
But check this.
The illusion seems so dreamy
Dreamy in a sense that when you’re on my mind and I close my eyes
I can feel you close to me
But 9 out of ten times
When I wake up, I feel like I lost something.
And so, I ask the divine…
How much more time?
Is this path even mine?
