Letting Go.

Nena Netero
Nov 7 · 2 min read

How hard should it really be?

I don’t think it should be a struggle at all.

It's like he’s leaving me behind although he did give me time

What a year and a half?

But I feel like it ended when he had his kid.

I know I’m not just in love with the idea of him

It’s because I know I love the way I feel with him

Ever since the first day, I laid eyes on him

He didn’t just shine like the rest of them

But even still I decided to take a deep breath within because — to the left, I didn’t just have a friend

Was this love or the desire of a deadly sin?

You know the one where the Christians rush to condemn men.

Because pleasures of the flesh shouldn’t be experienced.

I’m telling you that’s not what I felt when I finally locked eyes with you in person

It’s like our spirits reunited and lit a fire no longer contained.

Even still, were you aware of the feeling?

Did it leave a lasting memory in the akashic domain?

I still think about the day and the days in between

The way waiting for texts that never came through would make me feel a fool

When I finally saw your name pop up in my DMs

Yes, the story is true

You made me feel a way

A way that now when any man tries to lay a hand upon my spirit or lay me in his bed…

They gotta have one up on you.

But check this.

The illusion seems so dreamy

Dreamy in a sense that when you’re on my mind and I close my eyes

I can feel you close to me

But 9 out of ten times

When I wake up, I feel like I lost something.

And so, I ask the divine

How much more time?

Is this path even mine?

Nena Netero

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