Soliloquy

All I really want is
For these tears to dry away
All I really want is
For the pain to fly away
Time and time and time again
I go back to the same problems
Time and time and time again
I make a fool out of myself
So I’m self reflecting, why
I create misfortune and cry
It’s crazy how deep
the self sabotage is
And I really wanna know why
I can’t let these feelings die
Away, away
I can’t resist you & you know it
You like to play with my emotions
I bet it really boosts your ego
When you witness my devotion
To you
To you
But I can’t place all the blame on you
When I’ve been acting
As if I’ve been starved of love
The desperation I felt
To just be loved
To just be heard
Now I know what the problem is
I need to stop searching for a miracle
To save me from myself
And my responsibilities
However the loneliness kills me inside
Overwhelming me to run away and hide
Using people as a means of escapism
Perhaps it’s time for me
To turn it around and make a difference
