Nobody understands our relationship, nobody understands us.

said a guy best friend to the girl best friend or vice versa

To be dull, I feel offended.

One, you have that friendship that nobody understands, that the world you are living in, both of you see the same thing and I mean the craziest things that people couldn’t understand, that people wouldn’t imagine that people couldn’t see.

Two, who am I now? Open up to me and I will understand. I am able to understand that kind of relationship. I felt being pushed away whenever you say people say nobody understand. I don’t know why I feel really offended but, I really do. I am feeling like I am just a passer by to enjoy having you and not sharing some kind of special bond even when I call you my life.

Three, Why nobody can’t understand? I am giving my perspective view so I hope you people read and understand before “Fuck off fagot, why do you care?? It’s their life!” remarks to me.

I can understand the odd relationship. I am here, and don’t make me feel like I am that person standing by the sidelines. It is like, seeing shits going on in your world, beautiful shitty things, and I am so close to it, so close I could be zap if there’s a powerful shield protecting the world you and her are in. It is like I am in a world of ‘you guys’ and I am just looking, feeling desperate to be apart of this fantasy that I have the rights to enter, but I could not. I see them both. I see thru them that the world is theirs, it is their world and I tried to peek, and I sense they will give me this deadly stare. I saw inner genuine happiness.

I know you wouldn’t understand. I know you wouldn’t understand these feelings I am feeling. I know you wouldn’t.

You told me the relationship between you and her are like boyfriend & girlfriend but in a much stronger bond, it is that strong relationships that soulmates are meant to have, are meant to keep to themselves, that no one could enter and or even think about it, the world so magical, so meaningful, so precious.

At the end of the day, I see bonds that I have to accept that I will not be a part of it. The kind of bonds that soulmates will have, the kind of soulmates that their life were meant to be taking over the world together. These people are very lucky to have each other, to get to experience that kind of special bond that nobody can understand, for it doesn’t happen ever day.

I wish to experience that bond some day.

*maybe we have that special bond, our special bond, I am right now just very emotional. All people have their struggles in relationship, we are just too focus on how we feel that we forget what’s the other party’s feeling, but I wouldnt blame you if you had that feeling once in a while. Maybe you are having PMS or something you remember and feel helpless. I have weakness. This is purely on what I am feeling today, this very day… and things and feelings change overtime because events are always happening in the smallest way ☺