What are you looking for while working?
What are you looking for while working? Well, I don’t want to preach you. I only want to tell what I had got in working. I have tried working since my college. At that time, as student who wandered from small town, I could doing anything for the sake of money, as long as it came from kosher source. I could be private teacher, events ticket seller, for the sake at least I wouldn’t eat instant noodles too often, no default tuition, and I could live better with my limited pocket money from parents.
After finished my first degree, I tried to take opportunities as much I could. But that way was totally wrong. Before my graduation day, I was accepted to some companies that weren’t relevant with my education background whether I though it wasn’t important, but money and paid well were the points.
I was accepted to stocks, finance, and retail business companies. I tried to figure out what I should do, then I cracked with many things, I couldn’t do anything well. I gave in. I couldn’t work there anymore. So I decided to resign even it wasn’t one month yet.
From that case, I realized that I needed comfort and enjoyment of working. Even if I needed money as soon as possible and tried to be more independent, but I had to enjoy my job too. That’s why I quit. Then I joined some job fairs, applied from jobs website, asking from some colleagues for new job, new income, whilst I also did student private teaching.
Eng I Eng, I was accepted to my first job. Yes my real first job. And I have been almost 3 years there. No. Here…!!! I can’t say that “this is my dream job”. Actually No..! So what things had made me decided to join this company? With many considerations, such as; company considered to let my plan continuing my degree, I was given free living house, free meals three times a day, and paid sufficient as living cost at Medan wasn’t high, trained in abroad, OJT in some places in Indonesia, etc,.
Was I happy? Not really, but It might be. I could taking my bachelor program as well, I could buying some stuffs I dreamed, I had more choices in life by having more money. But, this is not my dream job. Let’s say, I need money in that time to pay my tuititions, to pay my bills, and to buy some primary stuffs.
Over the years, I finished my bachelor degree. I almost forgot what’s else I looked for here. I was paid well as my workloads didn’t take much pressures, so it made targets looked like buried, lost the directions, working become a routine, office-ing, do some bullshit inspections and its reports-presentations and just like a must to get money. How about expertise? I don’t think so. I still don’t my expectations in many things as long as I’m here. I only know that I’m paid well.
It didn’t mean that I didn’t care with management that paid me, but I was at the moment really lost my desire to look out. I really felt too safe getting money without crushing anything. But, then I welcomed to anxiety and worries. What will be the next?
Deep inside, I sighed deeply, remembering my will to take my master degree. For what? To open doors as many as it can. So now, if you ask me, what I am looking for in working, I will tell you my wills.
I would like to take job which makes me enjoy that job, comfort, enjoyable. But it matters if I’m not paid well. So to avoid it, I will have considerations before quitting this current job. I will not take a job that’s worse than my current job, due to my plan taking master degree, I want a job which can pay my tuitions, sufficient for living-life cost, and let employee in time and opportunities to study. As simple as that.
“Now you’re working in abroad and it can’t help you to get what you want!” Who says? If I’m here, it means my opportunity to take my master degree will be more possible, means It’s more possible to pay down payment whether it’s not cheap, means I can prepare what subject I will take, means to realize more what I really want to be.
That’s my future job for me now. May be future job for several years. Or may be to be my permanent job. Directly I remember a song of Lana Del Rey titled “Money Power Glory” with its lyrics, “I want money and all your power, all your glory. Alleluia, I’m gonna take them for all that they got”. Lol.
You may say that first job is not what you really want. Because some times, taking first job is due to needs of money to fulfill all needs. Or you can say that getting first job is kind of better choice than being jobless and unemployee. You can say, “… just do it, enjoy it, and be thankful. Don’t complain, to reduce that sucks”. Yeah, it’s ok. Still young. Who knows, it will be useful in future.
But over the times, we will know that working is not only about money, but also about comfort, expertise, skill, etc,. Now I’m paid well as what I dreamed before, now looking for my comfort. But why I don’t quit? I’m not ready yet, still not pretty good level skills and still no other suitable company due to the qualification I need now, whilst I’m trying to look for the place I can get work, comfort, paid well, or let’s say dreamed job.
As I told, the longer time, getting hit by inflation and maybe married, so will there be other needs, then it will need job that not only makes it’s comfortable but makes a safe bank account. If ability is at good level, there is a possibility can get the job we want.
I mean, Just continue to develop your abilities and passion until finally you don’t need to apply for a job, but you are offered a job. Or until you can apply for a job that is likely to be rejected thinly, and his work can meet physical needs and spiritual needs. I mean the money is ok, the heart is ok.
Now, just continue to develop abilities and passion until finally don’t need to apply for a job, but offered a job. Or can apply for a job that is likely to be rejected thinly, and my job can meet physical needs and spiritual needs. I mean the money is ok, the heart is ok. Oh my dream Me for a dream job for the better life.!!!
The way of people life is different. I started working as a private teacher until I became a broker for a friend’s paper craft merchandise, and events tickets seller. Starting from the one which was paid 25.000 IDR for 90 minutes, only 10% sales commission, and 8.000 IDR for one sold ticket. But, there are those people who start working directly that can be very good. First job become permanent job such as government worker. Or someone who has applied for many job recruitments but still have no accepted.
Everyone and everything have their own paths. Keep believing and praying, universe will not be silent seeing our efforts. While we study again. Take control of one or two fields, but really understand that our level of ability is always increasing. Open with new things that are also important.
Work according to passion? Really fun! But not everyone can get it right way. I do have passion in speaking, persuasion, but I took college in engineering, I’m working in engineering, but I also do my passion for fun. I read many books, write reviews, take some social-spiritual activities to train my speech. Depends on each other’s way of life. Somebody may take passion as their job to earn money, but somebody may not but still do it for fun. Keep trying and while pursuing there, hone skills and keep learning. Sometimes I find a dead end too, turn back, it’s ok!
How do you think? Give me a favor.