Are you aware of your negative automatic thoughts?

odawni
3 min readJun 3, 2018

You can totally think your way out of them

For the first time, I’m experiencing living without symptoms of depression. It’s wonderful and amazing but it’s taken some getting used to. I’m living a life with stability, ease, and the ability to fully embrace and enjoy the moment. What?!

Happy me.

One of the most debilitating aspects of living with a ‘mind illness’ is that you never know when your mind will turn on you. You can’t depend on feeling OK from one day to the next or from one moment to the next.

A major depressive undertow is the trap of negative automatic thoughts (NATs). Now, just to be clear, you don’t have to have depression to experience NATs but with depression, the thoughts are oppressive, degrading, merciless and persistent. Imagine someone screaming in your ear all day about how terrible, worthless and hopeless you are. Not fun. Or confidence-building!

No wonder depression is so exhausting. You are literally waging an endless war with your thoughts and you are doing it in an invisible space — your internal world — where depression insidiously hides.

No one is born with a brain implanted with negative thought patterns. They are formed by how you are raised, what neighborhood you live in, the friends you have, schools you…

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odawni

I’m a Filipina-American mental health writer and toddler mom. I mostly focus on suicide, depression and living with bipolar disorder. This is a no AI zone.