Take an off-day

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I know I wrote in a recent post to never stop. I think I wrote that when I felt very motivated and inspired. Sometimes life gets in the way. Sometimes we are physically unable to keep going and have to stop. I think that’s okay, but you shouldn’t stop just because of one road block.

I’m writing this because this weekend I got really sick. I had body aches starting Friday and I’m finally getting better Sunday. I had a lot of things I wanted to get done this weekend since I’m finally done with my tests.

I wanted to read books and articles, work on coding, watch some videos, and mainly just relax. Instead, I was bedridden all day and just slept most of the time.

The only thing on my head was my writing challenge. Should I just miss out today? I don’t have any good ideas, and I could just write an apology post and get over it. It’s not like anyone is watching or keeping me accountable. I caught myself thinking like this and immediately opened my laptop.

I had to stare at my laptop for 2 hours fighting through a headache and barely being able to sit up, but I was able to at least put out something. It was a short post, but I was glad that I pushed myself to do what I said I’d do.

Sometimes our body can break down. Whether we like it or not, our bodies have limits too. We can get sick, hurt, or exhausted. I learned that our willpower is like a muscle, and it can be depleted. We can only motivate ourselves to a certain point.

I think that’s okay. Our bodies are sending us a message. It needs to take some time to recharge, and we shouldn’t ignore it. It might feel like you’re pushing past your comfort zone, but I think it is only hurting you. You need to learn your limits.

That’s why I think there should be a back up plan. If I accounted for a day that I would be sick and unable to write a decent post, I would have written some extra posts on a day that I felt good. I would save these posts only for days of emergencies, and not on days when I feel lazy.

I had the whole day today to write this post, and only at 11:00 PM did I get started. I think I woke up because unconsciously, my brain had set a deadline for today’s post. If I didn’t treat this task with urgency, I think I would have just slept for the rest of the night.

I also have to learn how to take care of my body. If I am unable to do anything for the whole day, it can have a long lasting effect throughout the week. Maybe I couldn’t finish a report for work, or maybe I couldn’t study for a test. This only hurts me, and I should realize that no one is accountable for my health except myself.

So listen to your body. Understand your limits and take a break when you need to. If you hold yourself to something that you said you’d do, I suggest you do it — unless you’re physically unable to. Because one break can turn into two or three, until you start making excuses altogether.

I don’t know how long this will go on for, but I am focused on the process. There is no set number like “100 days challenge”. I want to see if I can make this a habit so that it would be strange not to write one. I want to see how far and how dedicated I can be to something no one is holding me accountable for. I want to see the lessons I learn and how much I grow through these challenges.