I STARTED WRITING

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I started a Youtube channel.

I started a newsletter.

I started a Bookstagram.

I started updating my medium regularly.

I started reading at least 5000 words daily.

I started working out daily.

I started praying fervently and reading my Bible religiously.

I started sightseeing and visiting new places weekly.

I started making cuter outfits for myself weekly.

I started paying more attention to my life goals.

I started giving more energy to my digital marketing courses.

I started making more money from the things I enjoy doing.

I STARTED WRITING.

In recent times, I’ve had the worst sort of creative block. Maybe I was unmotivated; maybe I was mentally exhausted; maybe I didn’t see a need to write; or maybe I’d simply forgotten how to write just for enjoyment sakes. I just got mentally exhausted and started floating and winging through life generally.

Funnily enough, I have never written consistently and as much as I have written in the past weeks. As you probably know I didn’t write here on Medium, that’s because I wasn’t writing because I enjoyed it.

I was writing because it was my job. I wrote [still write] because it’s what I am being paid to do, not necessarily for fun. At my place of work, I do a different kind of writing from what I do here, and it’s in a much more rigid form. Make no mistakes, I am great at my job nevertheless.

But it can never be compared to writing for no reason, writing just because I love to and want to. I love writing for people who are excited to read my work. I love writing for people who look forward to my next writing issue. I love writing for people who see themselves in me. I love sharing parts of myself and my life to make someone feel seen…

You’re wondering when I overcame my creative block and started doing the activities I mentioned at the start of this story. The truth is: I have not. But I want to say that I’m slowly breaking out of the creative block. I’m getting a grip on what I want to do/be, and maybe how to do/be those things. And that’s why I wrote them up there. So that I can write the vision on here and make the vision plain, that I may be able to always read it and run with it.

And I really can’t wait to take you through this journey. [And I also can’t wait for the people that will read this in the coming years to also walk through this journey]. I want to share my journey with you and I hope you enjoy every bit of it.

So, how do I intend to be all of these things?

You see, I have a problem. And I have acknowledged that I have this problem, and it has stopped me from becoming everything I know I can become for as long as I can remember. The only problem is PROCRASTINATION. I always know what to do, but doing it is the constant problem. Starting it is where I get stuck.

My solution to this problem is to do it now. I’m chasing my dreams now. Which is why I am writing this story in my bed tonight. I don’t want to wait until tomorrow to “perfectly” write this story [and inevitably have “perfectly” become “never”].

Which is why:

• I have set up my tripod in my room permanently, so that I can always see it and remember that I have video content to create.
• I have updated my Upwork profile today to make me a bit more eligible to get my first gig.
• I have written down a few prompts to help me with what I would love to write about in subsequent days [Both for work and personal projects].
• I have started brainstorming ideas on what to do on my Youtube channel today.
• I am writing this tonight.

I pray to God to give me the strength and willpower to stick to my plans henceforth.

And I am also starting a 30-day writing challenge on Medium by myself with a different issue daily. It will be about this “journey to being” that I have embarked on. And it’s just going to be my means of accountability to myself and to you!

And I hope that by the end of it, I come out a better reader, writer, achiever and person. 💚

P.S- if you have ever had a creative block, I would love to know how you got over it, and I want to read your stories and follow you too. Please drop a comment, I would love to hear from you.