Victoria the same has happened to me. I cried, thought I’d do myself harm, and friends took me to church. I’ve learned to put it into God’s hands. I no longer worry, cry, or sad to say miss my only child. You will get over this period. I have spoken to so many mothers going through this. It seems to be quite common these days. Just go on with your life before it destroys you. We don’t know why and we will never know why. Wish them love and light and let them grow with their parenthood.