
Be aware, be POWERFUL!
Have you ever felt like you are existing and not living? Have you ever thought to yourself that your life has been akin to surfing someone else’s wave? I so have. So why oh WHY did I do it? Why did I simply not make a change and correct the wrong? The reason? I had absolutely no idea that I was leading my life that way…..no idea. There was all this confusion as to why things were not working out the way I wanted, why I had this inherent unhappiness in my soul. The simple fact was that I was aware that I was unhappy but I had no awareness of who/what was in control of my life. I had thought that I was in control. I was so wrong.
The realisation that some other force had been in control of my life up to that point was mind blowing. I liken it to an out of body experience….you suddenly realise that for such a long time you have been an observer to your own life and actions…your own form of reality TV with yourself being the main attraction, never once realising that you were in fact watching real events that were happening to you and not some person you do not know on screen.
Up to that point, depression, lack of confidence, poor self image….all of these negative emotions had been in the driving seat, with me being the willing passenger. I never once considered that I had the ability to drive, that I could take back control. Yes the depression etc was so strong but at the same time I needed to accept that I had given that strength away. This strength came from me. This depression was then, part of me. I had the strength and was displaying this ability, albeit in a negative way. The fact of the matter was that I had simply misdirected it.
Now I am not saying that it is easy to recover from depression. It most definitely is not. However we must all start somewhere on that journey and for me it was becoming aware, self aware. For example:
- Why had I never found luck in my career? The answer: I had never played an active part in choosing the job I was applying for. I did what others recommended, continued along a path that other people said I was best suited for. I never once asked what do I want to do…what do I enjoy doing/not doing, what is the career path that I want to pursue!? What do I recognise as my strengths and those weaknesses that I can turn around make them work for me?
- Why am I so unlucky in love, I can never find the right partner? The answer: If I never take a risk, if I hang around with the same people all the time, if I always do the same things, if I never accept the belief that I am someone who can be loved by another…….how on earth will I ever find him and he me?
The above are just two examples from my life outlining how I was simply not self-aware of the true drivers of what was/was not happening in my life. I simply accepted the status quo without ever questioning it or believing that it could be different. I became a bystander to my own life…..choosing to purely exist and not live! That is until, I became aware.

Self awareness was my saviour. I started to ask questions, foster curiosity, do the hard work of running towards a fear, take risks. This is like a seed which grows. This self awareness, if you allow it to communicate with your heart, mind and soul, will help create a positive force within your psyche that will help you take back control, to become happy and successful, to be able to be in the driving seat of your own life and have the power to steer in the direction that you wish to go in. This seed will grow and blossom into a new living plant and being that is the life you internally always wished for but never thought possible.
Self awareness truly helps you to work out the negative from the positive…to see those forces (even people, exisiting friends) which really should have no part to play in your future. If you are not self aware of what is your life’s journey, accepting all the highs and the lows, the possibilities and those areas beyond your control, those to love and those to bid farewell to…….how will you ever truly achieve your own life’s potential.
Allow the seed of self awareness to grow within you……see what new and amazing direction it takes you in.