
Damn, it feels like I get a new troll each week since my Twitch channel has been growing. The thing is I’m still “small time” with only 500-ish followers.
Don’t get me wrong, I feel “huge” in the sense that only a couple months ago I was trying to break the 50-follower mark trying hard to make Twitch affiliate status.
But I also understand that it’s going to take thousands if not tens-of-thousands of followers to make the kind of money that replaces a normal job.
That being said, for some reason, I am getting haters on a somewhat regular basis now.
The reason I am baffled is because I am still a struggling, trying-to-make-ends-meet, wannabe streamer still.
I can barely pay off a cell phone bill much less my apartment rent with the money I’m making from Twitch.
I feel shitty enough as it is, yet other people feel the need to come and try to bring me down even further.
It’s baffling because I’m already somewhat miserable as it is.
I must be a real good bullshitter. Because these trolls seem to think I am reaching some sort of success. Perhaps I am trending upwards but I’m nowhere near where a reasonable person would point and say “successful.”
In fact I am still a losing poker player playing the lowest micro limits. That feels pretty shitty to me, and pointing out that fact and calling me a loser doesn’t make me feel any worse about it.
In fact, I sometimes think these haters are doing me a favor. If people were instead always saying how awesome I’m doing and how great it is that I am stuck in the micros, then perhaps I would have no motivation to improve and climb limits.
But I don’t think these haters are trying to “help” me at all.
I believe their intention is to make me feel just as shitty as they do. And when they see that I have a chance to feel good about myself, they jump in and try to prevent it from happening.
Little do they know, they are helping me. They are giving me the best motivator I’ve ever had to get better and make loads of money.
I think the best way I can fight the trolls is to just keep growing my stream and making more money at poker.
I’ve always felt sorry for the trolls actually. I can see the person behind the screen. I feel like the troll must feel pretty shitty inside in order to want to bring me to his level (yes it’s always a “he” bc for some reason girls don’t troll me).
I actually have a lot of sympathy for these miserable people.
The thing is, they resemble terrorists. They pretty much are terrorists, but with much less balls. At least you can respect a suicide bomber for giving his life to his cause.
These internet trolls are not only miserable fucking creatures. On top of being miserable, they are weak and pathetic and have no balls. At least grow a fucking pair and meet me on the streets and say your shit to my face, so that I may have the opportunity to rip your fucking face off, you miserable cunt bag whore face.
Thank you very much.