Thanks for writing about the truth and where it lies.
I had been trying to work on a relationship with the man with whom I share a beautiful child. I let him back after he hurt me over and over again. And he always made it like it was me to be blamed. I kept my head down and worked hard on building my career and a family life with him. Until one day, I realized everything else in my life is great except for him. He, was the true reason of what had been keeping me down. So down, it’s unbelievable and I could not recognize that girl in the mirror, who was once with bright eyes so aspiring for a better life. In the process of trying to please him and suppressing my own needs and doubts about him, I paid the great price of losing myself, losing my respect for myself and losing my dignity. After yet another senseless big fight with him, I crashed, just when I achieved what I had been working my whole life for…I got really sick for almost a month and could not recover. From there, gradually I lost everything I hard fought to earn in my career. Along the way, I lost myself. Only then, I realized, it wasn’t me, it was him! He is the cruel monster in my life that sucked up everything I held dearly, including principles and integrity. It took me yet another year to try to let go.. I finally got to where I am. It is still very painful but I finally answered to that deep voice within. “It wasn’t you, it was him. Don’t ever let him back in. Protect yourself and your child. Cherish and stand up for yourself! it is truly, over.”