I WANT MYSELF BACK

It’s 12:38 Am on May 27

And all I can think of is how much I miss being a child

To be honest, I am still a child, My age just says otherwise

But like we love to say, ‘Age is just a number’

I remember how I never got to enjoy the latter part of my childhood because I thought I had everything figured out at 16

At 16, I knew what I wanted, and how to get there and I was working towards it.

I had the best habits and my life was in order

All of a sudden I turned 18 and my life seems to be all over the place.

I am sure at this point you are expecting me to explain the incidents that caused these, maybe I dropped out of college or lost my memory or something.

Unfortunately, nothing like that happened so I have nothing to blame for this.

My life seems to have lost its purpose, I don’t know what I want or even need

I just seem to be living without actually living

And I am on a part to figure it all out.

I don’t know what I am figuring out or why I am starting a blog right now.

But I guess I am doing this because I can’t really tell anyone about this.

Everybody around me expects me to have it all figured out considering the fact that I was so sure of what I wanted.

And now that I don’t even know why I exist, how am I supposed to explain this to them.

Since you just met me, I am sure you understand better.

In this blog, I am going to carry you along on the journey and also let you in on some funny and chaotic stuff that happen in my head.

I hope you find yourself during this process too

Cheers to a long journey friend

Love, Omottolani