Pessimism

Orlando Koh
Jul 25, 2017 · 2 min read

Looking back at the drafts I wrote (and never actually finished thanks to my laziness… Hooray!), I noticed most of them are actually pretty negative. Even a positive post I was supposedly writing has a lot of negativity in it.

I’d like to think I have improved a lot when it comes to negativity but it seems to not be true when it comes to myself. I am still fairly critical when it comes to my own mistakes even though I would have just let it slide if someone else made it. Then, I end up dwelling in the past instead of just letting it go.

Alas, nothing interesting is happening in my life. I’m not exactly putting the effort to let anything happen though, staying indoors all day. As I’ve discovered previously however, going outside does not exactly change my attitude, and perhaps that’s what needs changing in the first place.

I really ought to be more positive in everything I do and believe it will all contribute towards something much bigger for me in the future. There will be setbacks, there already has been setbacks. The thing left for me to do is not to just shy away when I meet them and actually try to overcome them.

Reading back, even this post itself is pretty pessimistic. How ironic. I really ought to try and brighten my posts or it literally will end up being generic depressingly lazy youth #1249013 out there. After all, my problems does seem to be of my own making. I’m actually finding myself calling myself out when I complain to a friend about how bored I am that it actually is my fault I’m in this position.

Thus hopefully I try to keep writing more posts more consistently. I need to remember, I want and will be a creator and not a consumer. At least, not just a consumer. I still want to consume, all things considered. Can’t let go of what you love so easily, no?

Orlando Koh

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Just a lost little INFP trying to restore his fading creativity.

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