My crazy life….

Today August 10, 2016, I am going to start blogging about my trials and tribulations as a recovering addict and single mom of 6 that has recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and anxiety. Gosh where to start…well I will start with the fact that I never grew up saying Oh my gosh I cannot wait to get married, have children THEN get divorced and become a single mom of 6!!! I have been thru some god awful crap these past few years, brother completes suicide in 2011, after 7 yrs clean start using again in 2012, ex gets arrested for 1st degree murder in September 2014 and in December 2014 my boyfriend is murdered. WTF…am I reaping what I have sewn; by my severe drug addiction that lasted approximately 5 yrs that led me to neglect my marriage and my children. SMH maybe this is what I deserve, not to sure. July 30th 2016 my 20 year old tries to commit suicide and I am left wondering should I have pro-created; ???? Do I deserve to be a mother to 6 beautiful children? So I’ve got scattered thoughts and will be back tomorrow night to vent some more.