I loved how you talked about having suicidal depression ptsd, and any more tramatizing situations in your life I have not dealt with as much painful things as you have, but I do suffer from bipolar depression and major depressive disorder. I too understand what it feels like to have no one care or st least seem like they don’t. I eventually opened up to a few people and realized I just thought that’s what they thought of me. In reality they cared a lot and wanted to help me in any way that they could. I felt so blessed to finally have lifted this weight off my shoulders, to have someone by my side.