Dear Ms. Sun,
Thanks for sharing with us your struggle. That is brave being such a private and complex matter.
Here is my humble opinion in case it is worth something: my intention is to be of help. I write this only after reflecting on my thoughts and conscience as a dad.
I’m afraid there is no easy answer. Nevertheless, my respectful advice is to take the decision and the actions you can live with for the rest of your life. Your Dad matters and your dreams and projects matter as well. You are young, smart and determined. Your creative genius will be there in the future. But being next to your Dad in tough moments is something you won’t regret.
The answer you are looking for is already inside of you. Seek peace and silence, let the answer arise, it will be clear as pristine water. Doubt will disappear. Seek balance.
Honor your dad with the gift of your presence and with your smile. Hold his hand, look him in the eye and say “Thank You” a million times for all he did for you. Tell him wholeheartedly how much you love him.
To your Dad, your love, presence and affection has no comparison with going on a luxury cruise or having a meal at a Michelin three-star fancy restaurant. Genuine love from his daughter is the most precious treasure to Mr. Sun.
May the Light guide you and fill your most inner being with wisdom and peace.