Hi Robyn,
I see that this above was posted over a year ago. Kudos to you (not meaning to make a food reference). Much of what you wrote is probably how many “dieters” have felt/ do feel. Myself included. I have to say that it took me 61 years to have a truce with food. I lost 57lbs over 4 years once I found a solution that works for me. It was a solution that I searched for for many years. I think everyone needs to find what works for them. Something that lets them eat without guilt but thatwill reign them in when stupid stuff starts. Many times I have asked myself “why” do I overeat. I am a smart person in all the rest of my life, but not when it comes to overeating. Like you, I skirted with bulimia but never became bulimic. I am now pretty much at peace with my eating habits, always knowing I have my safety net diet to bring back to sense.
Best of luck..
Pamela