Your story has brought me to tears. Loss is always difficult but none more so than that of a child. I remember my OB putting it very plainly to me when I was pregnant and grief-stricken over my dad. She said, “This is the circle of life. I see it play out like this all the time. One is going off stage, like your father while another is arriving, like your baby.”
My heart goes out to you. How brave you had to be, it’s just astounding. Well done.