demonstration of my declination

i am drowning
in a sea of trash.
consistently tachycardic;
completely anhedonic
gradually suffocating
under the weight of self-doubt,
and unease.
akathisia
there are days where i am floating
sorry — there were days where i am floating
above cumulus clouds,
white cotton candy
ultraviolet light permeating
dew drops in the morning.
when respiration no longer stings,
content with whatever the world brings
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