Pressure to be dressed appropriately for my age, my job, my body. I usually shop thinking “Does this make me look younger/older/professional/corporate/casual/[adjective of choice]?”. I spend a considerable amount of time every evening planning my outfits according to what’s in my calendar for the next day, trying to match my image with people’s expectations… No more
Beating myself up when I make mistakes at work and feeling inadequate when I don’t know something. I did the same kind of job for a long time and I got used to be very competent, confident, at ease with my day to day routine. Now I’m learning a new kind of job and half the time I don’t know what I’m doing, it’s normal and ok!
Feeling guilty when I choose self care over what I “should” do. Cleaning, errands, social engagements, work, exercise, people stuff; none of it is essential, the world will not stop if I take some time for myself.
Guilt about my wealth and achievements. Talking about my life makes me uncomfortable, I keep understating things to put people at ease. One thing is acknowledging my privilege and being considerate of other people’s feelings, a completely different one is feeling shame or guilt about what I worked so hard to get and should be proud of.
Justifying my life choices. I value/do/want many things that are not mainstream whilst I could not care less or actively dislike other things that are essential for many. My choices are just as valid and I do not owe anyone an explanation.
Excusing inappropriate behaviour when I see good intentions and walking on eggshells not to hurt feelings. If the person really has good intentions they will accept and appreciate my feedback.
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