My Daughters Birthday

My daughters birthday,

Looking to the future, Planning, work, milestones, corrections and expectations.

Looking at the past, Nostalgic, protective, fortunate, proud and a heart that’s lost and gone forever.

In the present, love (a little unrequited), vulnerable, indebted, selfless, depressed and elated.

This is at 4.

How does one survive being more and more vulnerable and expecting to be more and more unrequited.

The pain, to be, almost palpable, yet

If it’s a question of whatever has happened for requited love in the future…. then…

Let things be the way they are. I have had as much joy, happiness and tender feelings for a lifetime.

Heartache only reminds me of when my heart was filled with joy. What more can I ask for ?