Five years will be gone in the blink of an eye. And before you know it, all of the ‘misery’ will have meant something. Life is full of suffering no matter how rich you are, no matter how great your circumstances, you will still find some form of suffering. You may see other’s people misery as trivial compared to yours but I have found that they feel it with the same intensity (stupid I know).
You are fortunate enough to have found something you are willing to suffer for. Now you just have to keep choosing it. I know you can do it. I wholeheartedly believe in you.