I’m so glad you were able to get these words out. And so beautifully.
But please be aware of one thing. This is not a fault of character but rather a sign of your strength. To realize this pressure to conform at such a young age and start to act on it speaks volumes to me of your strength, intelligence and spirit.
It would take me into my forties.
If there is a fault, it is in the complicity that all of us have allowed. We have created a society where children can not be. And this is a sad thing.