A leap of faith

Maybe a leap of faith is all one needs in life.

I’m contemplating taking a leap of faith in my plans for this summer. I currently don’t have any obligations at this point.

A clean slate. Three months on a white canvas.

I have a few ideas up my sleeve. These ideas are a few ones that some people close to me may not approve. Some have already expressed to me their disapproval, and some I know will. Please know that I will not be wasting all my money or doing anything extremely dangerous in these ideas of mine. They’re essentially plans I’d be doing on my own in foreign territory, and for the first time in my life.

But maybe I need this leap of faith at this point in my life.

Last summer, I took one. I went to Washington D.C. only knowing a handful of people at the acquaintance level for a full time internship. I lived in an apartment with two other interning students I didn’t know. I had the time of my life. I want to do it again (go to D.C. and, also, take another leap of faith).

I live as a student in the city of New York. I know I am still in school, but coming from a small town in Massachusetts, I feel I’ve made it - to a certain extent - I’ve networked, met many people, done an internship, reported in my free time, explored the city, made great memories, worked as a resident advisor on campus, made incredible friends, and more. New York is big. New York is one step. What’s next? The world.

Except the leap of faith alarms. It’s the nerves. It’s being scared of not getting the approval I’d like to get. It’s being worried about taking it and failing. It’s being nervous about doing it and having a bad experience. I’m excited, I want to do this, I’ve been dreaming about it for a while. There are a few obstacles, and I want to work around them, but I also cannot wait for them. I shouldn’t have to wait for them. I should go ahead and take on my goals, with or without anyone else, with or without anyone’s approval, with or without the nerves I may have. It’ll be difficult, but a leap of faith may be what I need now in life. It may be what you too need in life as well.

I should go and click that button(s). Reserve. Book. Approve. Go. Live.