Getting sh!t done!

The intensity that I ask of myself to work at sometimes can be tricky. On each occasion, I’m left wondering why the hell have I put this workload on myself. Given the nature of my role, my deadlines are predominantly self-imposed.

I’ve had to pump out some work today, between proposals, status reports, reviews, more status reports and some budget updates. It doesn’t seem like much condensed here,however, the quantity of each was large today.

Daily habits that alleviate this sort of burden is definitely an area that I could do with improving. But, the excitement, adrenaline rush, intensity of focus is equally not something to be snitched at. When successful in hitting seemingly “hard” deadlines, there is a great rush. A sense of fulfillment, or achievement. I don’t know what. But I’m sitting here relatively pleased with myself. I could have done more, but overall, today was a success. It was a good day.

Although I could work on some daily habits that would reduce this, I’m not completely convinced it would be better, the quality of work I mean.

Having those moments/days wherein the focus is so strong, puts value in the efforts I make to meditate every day(done to improve my focus). It also shows me I can achieve more than my self-talk often tells me.

For instance, I wasn’t going to write this blog post today, but I am now getting more curious to see if I can and if I could. If I can quickly write this, get all the lunch time food shopping I got done, packed in my bag and make my way to the train, to get home a little early and have an extra 30 minutes with my family. After all, it is Friday, and as much as I am opposed to segregating my thinking into boxes, weekdays being mainly for work processing and weekends for family fun. I want to go home and celebrate the fact that tomorrow I won’t have to say goodbye to my family in the morning. I get to wake with my wife and feed my daughter breakfast.

More work = More life!

The harder I go, the more I experience, the richer I am(in every sense :-) )