I have been struggling for years to love myself. I had even thought a decade ago that I already did when suddenly, recently, I wanted to commit suicide again. It was then at the NeuroPsych ward that I realised how broken and battered I was because of how I didn’t love myself at all. And I thought all the while I did. It is the hardest work I’ll have to do in the days, weeks, months, maybe even years to come. I want to learn how to love myself and be whole because I know it’s the only way I can love another and give back to them the way I should be.