dear joshua
no no no was not saying — untrue, inaccurate or irrelevant — no no
was trying to extend it and expand it
only recently have found out that the world is a magic place — although it has grown with the passing of my time
we are not taught to be open to the things that we can’t measure — like subtle energy
and we are taught to see people who feel, as something to be shunned
good ted talk by a film maker, think its called psychosis or awakening,
where he explains that amongst tribal people when someone becomes ‘strange’ or ‘odd’ and is obviously going into something inside themselves the villagers assign a mentor to them whilst under their awakening
in my culture someone who doesn’t subscribe to a ‘normal’ way of thinking is thought to be ‘mad’ and will be given drugs to control the process rather than being supported through it
lost my job and most of my friends, who were by their description, are intellectuals and who spend a lot of time thinking and talking about people and the world, and who believe they are ‘good’ people, didn’t help me and sometimes harmed me by refusing to listen or who attacked me for not thinking like them
i have only two friends who really helped, both of whom who wouldn’t have described themselves as intellectuals, and had very disrupted childhoods but survived them knowing that reality is personal; one who listened to me rambling — although she said that she learnt a lot — and the other who would divert me with outings to wild places where nature did not intrude on my thoughts and feelings but allowed me to exist with no pressure
so no my friend would not say what you said was not true, just trying to reach out there into the global community that this magic box allows me to do, to find others who think about what it is to be alive as a human being
where most people’s reality seems like madness — shopping for stuff — going on ‘holidays’ to sit in the sun and get drunk — running about the world away from their own environment that has become degraded — the grass is greener somewhere else — instead of staying and rebuilding— changing their body or face to make themselves more’beautiful’ or exciting — becoming base and crude and vulgar by behaviour
we have such a small time here to feel the benefits of being human and nature — the sun warming and the wind blowing
and it can be a wonder or damn scary
but i did not mean to deny what you said in any way, shape or form, just trying to connect in what can seem a madness
regards penny