Why.

I know I am just writing to myself. I know this will remain invisible, another lonely strand on an abandoned web. I know to expect nothing, and I know I will be disappointed. So, why?

I am doing this because I need to do this. Days flow together as the only life given to me washes away. It can not be stopped, but it can be slowed.

And that is good enough for me. I fear death, not for what comes after, but for losing ‘now’. Only, I already lose the ‘now’. To waste is to hurt. And I am wasting away.

This blog serves a dual purpose in the raging against the coming night. First, I will express the human condition as only anonymity will allow, and in such, I will feel. Second, I change myself.

Change brings fear; change brings excitement; change brings emotion; change bring life. (Enjoy the list of four instead of the generic three). I am at an inflection point. I may not be moving positively yet, but I will get there. And I want you, my non-existent reader, to join me.

This blog, this post, was my first life challenge. I only hope I have the attention, the grit, to finish it. This is my attempt to live.

Signing Off,
The Home Philosophile