Growing up in a family of straight A students, near perfect ACT scores, and successful careers was never a simple task. Standards were set extremely high for me starting at a very young age. For my two older brothers school was always a breeze, which was not the case for myself. I dreaded going through those crowded smelly halls filled with teens gossiping left and right. I remember one morning my mother came into my room yelling for me to get out of bed. I broke into tears saying, “I never want to go to school again”. My mother consoled me, but never really understood why exactly I was refusing to go to school. I believed I was unable to fit in as well as my siblings had from intelligence to social abilities. Whenever we would see relatives they would always say, “I hope you grow up to be just your parents by following in their footsteps”. I wanted to be viewed as an individual, it was impossible to dodge the consistent comparisons. I am not my brothers, but I am hardworking, driven, and goal oriented. I had to work ten times harder to achieve what my family expected from me. When I think back on my childhood I wish I was brave enough at that time to just explain my emotions by saying what I had built up inside of me. Now being the age that I am confidence is a part of who I am. I am able to say that I am intelligent and just because I am not exactly what was expected me to be, but I am still important. I pushed myself everyday to prove I was worthy of being apart of my family. Finally after years of straining myself I felt I was worthy of having the last name Gerber. Determination drove me to success. I have known since I was five what I wanted to do with my life. With knowing that I wouldn’t let anything get in the way of achieving my goals. I had my future planned out, and teaching was the greatest part of that. Becoming a teacher will not be a simple task, but I know it suites me well. With becoming a perfectionist when it comes to school I know it will be useful in my career. I have been this way for many years, which will be quite helpful in the planning process of my lessons and other activities. I am the person I am today because of the high standards that were set for myself. I hope to one day achieve what I have set out for my life. I know I have the capability to do everything I have ever wanted from attending Illinois State university to graduating with a national honors status. My ability lies within myself and what I choose to apply myself to. When I don’t fully enjoy or am engaged with what I am learning or doing I sometimes slack off and say to myself that I will get to it later. In reality I know I most likely never will. This is definitely a downfall of mine , but I make up for it in effort. I understand that I can not be the best at every subject and sometimes classes will challenge me out of my comfort zone. I just have to push through the difficult sections and go back to the basics. Topics will not be understood overnight and every once and awhile I forget to tell myself that failure is necessary. I would not be where I am without failing repeatedly to make a better me from learning from those experiences. Intelligence is not based on how many questions you answer correctly it is based on how you incorrectly answer questions and understand why and how you can fix what you did. I learned this from my eldest brother Tyler. He did not always comprehend every topic he studied in school, but he did take them as a challenge and developed a new way to learn new ideas. He told me that I have to find the way that I learn best and for some people listening to a lecture is just not enough. I slowly realized that I needed to see images and take notes to help me be able to study what I learned in class and take it home with me to continue to review. Both of my brothers knew that I wasn’t the most intelligent in our family, but I was the most dedicated. I devoted my days to attempting to become just even a little bit smarter than I was when I one up that morning. We all taught one another something important to ultimately be successful.