
When the butterfly flapped its wings…
I was driving a Lamborghini….speeding a bit. Fabulous car, clear road, awesome weather and completely under control. I was high on happiness and achievements. High enough to have missed seeing the sharp turn. I felt it appeared too suddenly and had to break. The car shrieks, the speed drops and I almost lose control steering to the left until the Lamborghini halts. I took a deep breath trying to figure out what just happened while my heart was pounding.
This, is my story.
The Lamborghini is my Life and the sharp turn, the Butterfly in my neck.

It was diagnosed to be Subacute Thyroiditis. A rare viral infection of the thyroid gland, that has no treatment. It’s a peculiar disease; Not because it has no treatment, but because it has its own mood swings and can last till a Whale delivers a baby.
Uncle Google came to my rescue; Providing me with wide range, yet similar information on it. I scanned and registered in my chip, every possible article Uncle G displayed, along with a serious thought of assisting my ENT and the Endocrinologist on educating thyroiditis patients. Not many have heard of this problem. Even the spell checker marks it in red.
It comes with a jingbang of Life-Speed-Breakers. Before I could concentrate on the ‘pain in my neck’, literally; my life was completely under the control of the butterfly. It flapped its wings frantically, it was sick after all. It’s hyper activity almost caused a havoc. I was sitting on a crazy emotional roller coaster ride, crying and getting annoyed on imaginary situations. I felt hot with profuse sweating, and cold at the same time. I was behaving a typical ‘women’, sort of, a Yes means No and a No means Yes. It was like watching myself act in a terribly misdirected movie.

Crocin and Combiflam took over Kurkure and Maggi. The Mother Dairy chocobar was replaced with the thermometer. I took a vow of silence; well there was no choice. And fatigue became a close friend.
When pain travels all through the neck up to the back of the ears, jaws and teeth, it’s time for a flashback! Every scene of ignored throat infections, skipped steam inhalation time, over analyzing silly situations, rushing all the time, not trusting others enough and working out everything on my own, reacting to every post (more bad than good) on the social media, and above all leading an exercise less life, played in front of my eyes. This time I was watching a very well-directed dark movie, wondering why does it take a bad for a good to happen?!
A few realizations important to my ego;
- that I will live to become a happy, crazy, fun filled “grand”mother only if I take care of the mother today.
- that I do not need social media to feel wanted and cared by my friends.
- that I will be the way I think. My thoughts are my own creation and I have the ability to steer them in the direction I want.
- that my husband can manage house hold chores way better than I can. He doesn’t need me, I need him.
