Do I Miss This City?

I moved away because of my divorce, I thought a new life was appropriate. Leaving my son and his mother behind.
Even though I just got a job promotion, the thought of not being as one family was too much to bare.
Congrats Phil we are promoting you!
I just broke down and cried in front of my boss, I’m sure it was the first time he has ever seen someone lose their shit hysterically over good news. As I got back into my car, I puked a big one of stomach bile as I ate nothing that day. I knew I was fucked mentally, there was nothing that could save me from this day.

My mom had to come save me, as crying on my best friend’s shoulder at the time was awkward as shit. She flew me out and moved me into the small town we live today. Fast forward ten years later, I’m visiting the city again for a wedding, but now many things have changed.

Small town life has changed my mentally immensely, at first it felt like being an alien. I wasn’t white, everyone practically grew up here and I knew no one besides our immediate family. It didn’t help that our family was secretive and didn’t even want to talk much to the neighbors.
I adapted by meeting some friends albeit much younger and older than I was thanks to a poker club. Although being the center of their Mr. Miyagi and Chinese accent jokes was a small sacrifice I guess. As time went on though, the fact that I wasn’t Chinese and the jokes weren’t funny anymore proved that persistence still works when standing up for yourself.
It was easier to earn and save money though due to the relaxed pace of the small city, although I always felt that I was below average when I was competing in the metropolis. Around here we are the best, and the competition was crushed as they tried to take away what we have built.

Despite our family’s success, dark moments like myself going to jail and the passing of my mother. The woman that gave life to me and paved way to this small town lifestyle.
I was lonely and depressed at one point, wondering if I really miss my socialite status despite having nothing compared to what my metropolis friends have now. One could say I’m the poorest financially out of all my friends.

My son is entering high school soon, so there is this constant pressure for me to come back to the city and be there for him despite not knowing how I will pull it off financially if I were to move to the expensive metropolis.
At least family cooks good home made food at home :), at the moment I can only read the various books that will increase my wealth and allows me to visit him more often.