Sometimes, I question how every person I chose to love ended up to be lessons in your life for you to grow. And God, I hate that.
Do God really need to remove someone from your life to have something that He thinks it’s deserving of your love? Why can’t He just let that person whom you love be better?
“You need to let go of that person if you love them”
That’s bulshit. Why does it need to be them? Why do we need to let go? We’re supposed to fight, right? To fight for your love is to prove how much you love them.
But… what if, they don’t want to fight for you? What if they want to fight for someone else?
I don’t know how i always get hurt by people i only care about. I don’t know why they let me be lonely as if they never once cared about me at all. Sometimes, I wonder if i get sick, would they be there? Would they take care of the sick me? If I’m falling apart, are they going to be there to arrange my funeral?
And that hit me, they’re no longer the person i once loved. They’ve became someone they swore they wouldn’t.
It hurts, a lot. I hurts to be left like this — to be left shattered. And my only option is to let go. How can I let someone go when they’ve known every sides of me? They’ve made me feel like i’m loved the way i deserved, and ended up to be a lesson? Why does it always have to be like this?
Why does everyone leave?
To be love, to be taken of, to be looked for, to be seen, and to be known. I’ve experienced those before, and how can I forget every each?
Why does everyone leave?
Why do you have to leave?
Why do you have to forget me?
