Who said being a Mum is easy

One year, three months and two weeks ago exactly my thirteen year old son walked out of my home to live with his father. To the outsider this doesn't sound too bad does it, a son a being with his father!?! Standing where I am looking back it was the worst thing ever for him. My sons past year has included smoking (spliffs too so I heard but I have no proof), removal from one secondary school, an expulsion from another, a drunken accident which ended up with a hospital visit, a police record and currently being on police bail. I can stand here and say he was never like this when he was with me but what's the point. He was on the gifted and talented register and now he's waiting for a place at the local inclusion base. We had our problems. At the age of ten my son was diagnosed with ADHD and ODD. It took an age to get the diagnosis but his schools worked really hard alongside us to make sure that my son achieved his potential where possible, and he did! Secondary school was tough but we continued fighting. He made me so proud with his certificate of achievement for resistant materials at the end of year seven. I was even prouder when I waved him off to France on an international rugby tour at Disneyland Paris. He worked so incredibly hard for this place, not only with his rugby but also with his behaviour. My star conversion taker came back with so many stories and a fourth place for their team.

Today I received another abusive text from him demanding shoes. I've recently become disabled and and struggling to get benefits so presently have nothing coming in. I've always bought him something when he's needed it but it appears that his father has probably told him I've been collecting his dla for him for the past year which of course I havent. Any normal person knows how long it takes some benefit agencies to get moving! I suppose this has prompted me to start writing these blogs. These thoughts and feelings are driving me insane. How do I get a relationship back with my son? How do I stop the lies his father tells and how do I stop my son from believing them? How do I get my son's father to accept his sons ADHD and get him the help and medication he desperately needs? When will my son wake up to what his father really is? All I want is my son back. Just a text to let me know that he's ok and even maybe that he loves me. I do not proclaim to be the world's greatest mum but surely I deserve more than this….