Behest

2014

years later we’re still in the same place
and my insufficiency, by now, has turned itself into disgrace
I’ll come out from hiding
every other weekend
at my friends’ tired behest
you and I both know I’ve never been at my best
since you’ve known me, I’ve stayed fucked up and contrite
I don’t want to go out, I want to stay in tonight
I can see the disappointment on your face
my indecision will keep us in the same place