Everyone Needs a Reason to Get Up in the Morning

2014

I am caught between the desire to sleep
all day, to stay in bed, hiding behind
my too-thin curtains
and
a contemptuous disapproval
of myself, if I do not go and make
something of every day

because I do not know when
the last day will come
because I do not want to
find out what it feels like to be alone;
I am petrified that no one
will ever come to me