My Favorite Song in Spring Awakening

live or cast album.

Before I actually went to see this revival (and this show live) for the first time, it was And Then There Were None. I love that anger, that argument-like conflict, that tension.

After seeing it for the first time, (or the second? They are just one week apart) it became definitely Don’t Do Sadness/Blue Wind. Of course owing to the tragedy of Moritz, and Ilse, and those two together. And I love Krysta so much. She is incredible, and nice.

After seeing it for the fourth time, (and final time?) it is now Totally Fxxked, with The Bitch of Living running up. It is really weird and uncommon to have such anger and grief at my age. I can’t get over it.

It seems I hurried to grow up and left something behind, young and stupid and hurt. I know no cure.